Tuesday, October 28, 2008

its tuesday!

so yesterday evening i was online and who should get on and send me a message about their lives but the person i spoke about below in the blank CD blog. very interesting since i had asked papa a couple of days ago that if this person wasn't supposed to be in my life to take them out of my heart so that i wouldn't think about them and wonder so much how they are.

on the job front, nobody has called. i'm still coughing so i haven't rescheduled the appointment with the other employment agency and i'm sitting here thinking about creative ways that i might get the money to pay the rent on friday. yesterday morning i was online with a friend and she asked me what i was going to do and i said, "pray for supernatural provisions over my checkbook" -- to which she laughed. she's a christian -- i think she's done this before without success and that's y she laughed. i'll keep praying for the supernatural provision over the checkbook....

i had all these plans yesterday to work on my jewelry and create some new pieces, but that didn't happen. my daughter wasn't feeling well and stayed home from school. i had been up at 3 am and was exhausted and so we both went back to bed. it made me feel bad when i didn't get up till 11 -- she didn't get up until almost 2. she said her father was coming to get her late (he usually comes at 4:30 -- although he gets earlier and earlier all the time). imagine our surprise when he walks in the door at 4:17. after she left i set about doing the laundry -- a chore i've taken to doing when she's not here because it "gives me something constructive to do" and doesn't take time away from our time together. i don't date -- probably never will -- and since i have no money i don't go out with friends. but even if i did -- i'm still sick, so i wouldn't subject anyone else to my hacking. at any rate, in the midst of folding the first load, i found chewing gum on one of my shirts. i don't chew gum anymore -- so i know its from her -- and of course it was all over the inside of my dryer and who only knows what other articles of clothing. i didn't even bother to look because i was just to mad. i'll find out when i go to put things on i suppose. she and her brother used to put their lip balms in their pockets and forget about them and they would go through the wash ok but when the heat of the dryer hit them they would melt and ooze out their gooey-ness all over the other clothes. and of course, because it had oils in it that stuff NEVER comes out. for a long time i managed to get them to check their pockets for stuff before they dumped them by the washer. then i stopped bugging because i hadn't found any surprises. i guess i'll have to start bugging again....

so on another note, i finally was approved for Project Wonderful. we will see how this works for me. i'm off to actually get something done today -- even if it is only going and getting a loan on my life insurance...

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